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A nostalgia for cheese

I’m on a liquid-only regime for two weeks. I’m on my ninth day of fourteen. And I’m feeling fine. I’ve forgotten what hunger feels like. I genuinely don’t experience it any more. One evening, I had a weird feeling in … Continue reading

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The Surgery

I didn’t sleep the night before. I was a nervous wreck. I tidied the house. I gave the fish an unexpected middle-of-the-night feeding. I watched video after video on YouTube of people describing their experiences of weightloss surgery. I checked … Continue reading

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Songs for a patient on the eve of a sleeve gastrectomy

*Not a playlist you’ll find on Spotify. Yet. My Love is Your Love (Whitney Houston) – YouTube link In the summer of 1999, as I was finishing secondary school, Whitney Houston had a moderate-sized hit with this weird little song, the … Continue reading

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Bloods

On Friday morning I went to hospital for my pre-operative assessment. It’s a nice small hospital in East London and I was only 20 minutes late for my appointment. The nurse doing the assessment, a greying South Asian man with … Continue reading

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But what if…?

So my worries about the surgery go as follows: My hospital appointment is at 6:30 am. What if I sleep in and miss it? Apparently they pump air into your digestive system while they operate so you get horrible trapped … Continue reading

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Self-creation

I drank too many pints of cider the other night. And we got to talking about my surgery and one of my friends said that she didn’t want me to not be Connor any more after I become skinny and … Continue reading

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Paradise regained

Like an elderly lady at the end of a long day, I’m sitting on my sofa with my feet in a basin of warm water with a capful of Dettol added in. My feet are in a bit of a … Continue reading

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